Tuesday, November 21, 2006
Dear Theo,
Once again I showed up at the NICU at about 11:30 and had to wait to see you because they were having another meeting. When I did finally get to see you I was greeted by another wonderful surprise - the heat is no longer on in your incubator! I was so happy! Every accomplishment brings you a little closer to being ready to come home.
For your first feed you once again took in 30 cc's . For your second feed you didn't do quite as well as you fell asleep - you only got 15 cc's (still pretty good), but I was still happy.
Once again your father came back to the hospital with me tonight. When we got there he gave you a bath and once again you pretty much slept through the whole thing. After your bath your dad was going to put you back into your incubator but I told him to bring you into the breastfeeding room and snuggle with you while I pumped. I think he was really glad that he did. Because of his schedule, your daddy doesn't get to see you nearly as often as I do. I know that he misses you terribly.
The only disappointing thing about today was that for your last feed, your dad and I forgot to weigh you and it seemed like you did really well too. Maybe we'll just believe that you did :)
I was thinking today about what is normal and how what isn't normal becomes normal. Being in the NICU certain things that aren't 'normal' become normal: hooking and unhooking your baby from a heart monitor; changing them inside their incubator; and weighing them before you feed them. Even their size begins to seem normal. When your father and I came back to the hospital we saw a large baby in the NICU and your dad made a comment about how big the baby was compared to the other preemies. It reminded me of this baby that I saw at Francesca's baby shower. The baby looked so huge to me, especially the baby's head. I'm still not sure if the baby was bigger than normal or not.
Needless to say I am looking forward to getting you home so that we can create a new normal.
Love,
mommy
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