Letters to Theo - November 11, 2006

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Dear Theo,

Daddy and I came to see you this morning. We both were so proud of you because you stayed quiet through the two minutes of silence. It is so good to see you. Your head is starting to look more normal in its shape - you had a bit of a cone-head when you were born because they had to use forceps to get you out. You are also starting to look a little darker. Daddy and I have decided that you have his nose and his big feet and mommy's mouth and tiny ears. Regardless, I think you are absolutely beautiful. This afternoon your Grandma & Grandpa Roy stopped by to see you. Your Grandma is still trying to figure out what she wants you to call her, so as soon as she decides I will let you know.

Your grandparents were so excited to finally meet you. Grandma thinks you are the spitting image of your dad. I would love it if you end up looking like your father. I especially hope that you have his curly hair. So many people thought that you might have red hair like me - but I'm secretly glad that your hair is dark brown. I'm happy that you had such a nice visit with your grandparents.

Daddy and I came to see you this evening before we headed off to bed. It was hard to say goodnight to you - I felt the tears welling up inside me. Just as I was leaving, you grabbed a hold of my finger and held onto it. It almost felt like your way of saying 'don't worry mommy, I will be okay' and it made me feel a little better about leaving you.
I was still a little sad though and your daddy didn't quite understand why until I explained it to him. You have been in my tummy for the past 7 1/2 months and for at least the last 3 months I have been able to feel you moving around inside of me - until now. Anytime I wanted to I could touch my stomach and feel you there and be comforted. Now I can't do that and I feel lost without you.

Love,
mommy